Change of Scenery? And then some...

A few months ago, we decided by the end of this year we would like to be in Tulsa, Oklahoma. I think it is time for a change of scenery....and cheaper gas ofcourse! HAHA. Im the type of person that goes after what I want, the second I want it. So for me to say, I want to be in Oklahoma by the end of the year is a big thing. If I had it my way, I would have packed up the second I made that decision. Mike on the other hand...he has to have "ducks in a row" and yadda yadda. I suppose, do things the right way and the smart way?? Yeah, still not a big fan of that. I'd rather much be spontaneous!

Moving on...

This week at work might possibly be the hardest week I will have to encounter. One of my favorite (ok, are we supposed to have favorites? no? oh well) patients at the practice recently went down hill and the option of hospice was mentioned last week. A little background...she got breast cancer in 2004...went into remission and a few years ago, it came back. Chemo didn't work this time. In fact, she went stage 4. It spread to her CNS (central nervous system). And other various locations. She has been fighting a ling hard battle. She has had chemo through IV, chemo directly administered into her brain, pills, radiation....you name it. For the last few months she went into spouts of wanting to kick ass and fight it, and spouts of where she was just simply done fighting, she was tired. Her cancer went terminal last week. Her face is paralyzed to an extent and she is wheel chair bound. She lost all of her beautiful blonde hair during chemo. She no longer looks the same. But to me, she is the most beautiful person I have ever met in my entire life. I cant even begin to describe it. As I get ready for a new work week, I remember how lucky I am to be in good health and to be able to share these experiences with so many courageous people. I feel so honored to be a part of their battle. It breaks my heart to know she wont be around for much longer, but it is comforting to know she will be at peace and no longer in pain. To me, she has already fought this battle through and through.